i have been BaNd ..

Well I have bee ever so slightly bad.. I have ordered BAND baby clothes ... But I just couldn't resist them!!! look ..



How cute is this and the great thing is it doesn't matter whether I have a boy or a girl cos with jeans this will look soooooo cool... I have seen so many other bits I want to order !! I did give in and order this cute little tee aswell ...



There are soo many cool band baby grows out there but I must admit these where in the sale so I snapped them up. and once I find out who I am expecting (names are being kept secret) I will be ordering like a mad woman.. hehehe

I am going to have to h arras my very talented friend to make me at least one Sid vicious baby grow though ;) If I start now I might have one by Christmas lol.

OOooohhh and in other bump related cool things has anyone seen one of these??



I am so getting this look it is just too cool !!!

Yes I admit I am having one spoilt bump but hey I am only going to do this once so I am going to do it right ... ;) ....

Get me a whole post with out a single moan ...

Hormonal groan

Well hello again its been a wee while and you guessed it i need to vent!
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Well i have been rather off recently my heads all over the place to be fair its been a mad couple of weeks.
Lets start with the lighter happy stuff! I saw my baby bean for the first time last week! It was awe inspiring seeing this little person living in me!

Wooow!!!

Ooh and my mum went to bruge last weekend look at the amazing chocies she got me! So want to fram them.

Now to the well slightly grizzly stuff!
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Well to start we were in my scan looking at little Bean when *t* got the call about his nans test results (she has been battling cancer for three years) and it wasnt good news not weeks, nor years. Was a amazing yet heartbreaking day!

Anyway its been a strange old time and my hormones are all over tge place but its really no excuse for my recent behaiviour. Ive been really horrible to *t* and its not his fualt.

But he has text me asking for a dna test! So now i am fuming! Why do men always do this?!?!?!? Oh it cant be mine! Really who the fuck do you think i am? You obviously never knew me! And you have just shot yourself in the foot if you think i am gona let you say things like that about me and get away with it!

The last thing i need right now is someone questioning my morals i might be a cold hearted bitch but i am not a slag!!!!!

Is it normal?

Is it normal to be so repulsed by someone? Every little thing they do angers me beyond belief! From over filling the kettle to opening MY crumpets ... Resulting in me throwing them out of the window... I can't even sit in my own living room because I don' t want to be near them. I feel horrible for feeling like this I don't even know why he angers me so much. I am left feeling guilty all the time. I suppose the nightmare I had didnt help because it disrupted my sleep and I woke up in tears. You see in the nightmare my little brother died it was awfull i awoke with such a sense of grief and dispair I imagine that can't have helped the mood i woke up in. I know my hormones are all over the place but is it normal to feel such contempt for someone when in reality they have done nothing to explain these feelings???

Grrrrrr

God i am in a terrible mood i just want to scream.kick kick punch and bite something. I dont know whats wrong with me ¡!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaAAAAAAAAAAAAAggggggggggghhhhhhhhhghhhhhhhfgggggggkrjcfbj zxavnunczjnfRbubvsggyijzaggggggggggvbbbbbgfzzAs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Belly blog...

Hmm i do not want to speak too soon but i dont feel too bad today :-)
Hurraaayy! It may be something to do with the two rounds of toast i ate for breakfast... Greedy i know but the plan was to have one slice with marmite and one with marmalade but marmite dripped on both slices :-( and ocd means i cant put one slice of bread in the toaster... Any ways i will shutup now!! As i have spoken too soon and feel sick again... Lets hope this feeling goes soon!!!!

Little bean.

My little bean is hopefully growing and healthy. But if not what would i do ? Its not something i even want to think about.
I dont believe in the A word so i just hope god would let us no whats meant to be. Yet tony is telling me if anything is wrong i can't keep bean... Well we will see about that my bean is mine and love is unconditional.

Bean mummy loves you no matter what! Xxx

I suppose untill i see the midwife and have a scan this will be at the back of my mind and tony can keep nagging me.

Week 8 of beans development !

New this week: webbed fingers and toes are poking out from your baby's hands and feet and your baby's tail is just about gone. Your baby's eyelids are practically covering her eyes, and breathing tubes extend from the throat to the branches of the developing lungs. In the brain, nerve cells are beginning to connect with one another. You may be daydreaming about your baby as one sex or the other, but if you could see inside your uterus you wouldn't get any clues. Your baby's external genitals still haven't developed enough to reveal whether you're having a boy or a girl. Either way, your baby is about the size of a kidney bean, and is constantly moving and shifting, though it will be weeks before you can feel it. http://www.babycenter.com/my-pregnancy-today-app