Belly blog...

Hmm i do not want to speak too soon but i dont feel too bad today :-)
Hurraaayy! It may be something to do with the two rounds of toast i ate for breakfast... Greedy i know but the plan was to have one slice with marmite and one with marmalade but marmite dripped on both slices :-( and ocd means i cant put one slice of bread in the toaster... Any ways i will shutup now!! As i have spoken too soon and feel sick again... Lets hope this feeling goes soon!!!!

Little bean.

My little bean is hopefully growing and healthy. But if not what would i do ? Its not something i even want to think about.
I dont believe in the A word so i just hope god would let us no whats meant to be. Yet tony is telling me if anything is wrong i can't keep bean... Well we will see about that my bean is mine and love is unconditional.

Bean mummy loves you no matter what! Xxx

I suppose untill i see the midwife and have a scan this will be at the back of my mind and tony can keep nagging me.

Week 8 of beans development !

New this week: webbed fingers and toes are poking out from your baby's hands and feet and your baby's tail is just about gone. Your baby's eyelids are practically covering her eyes, and breathing tubes extend from the throat to the branches of the developing lungs. In the brain, nerve cells are beginning to connect with one another. You may be daydreaming about your baby as one sex or the other, but if you could see inside your uterus you wouldn't get any clues. Your baby's external genitals still haven't developed enough to reveal whether you're having a boy or a girl. Either way, your baby is about the size of a kidney bean, and is constantly moving and shifting, though it will be weeks before you can feel it. http://www.babycenter.com/my-pregnancy-today-app

The belly blog...

8 weeks belly ... Haha its big enough as it is. As long as bean is healthy i dont care how big i get <3
... I do on the other hand mind this bloody sickness... I do hope it passes soon !! Everything and everyone smells really badly!!!! Eeeuugghhh

As time alone draws to a close...

Well as this week alone draws to a sad close  i will admit i am a little relieved. You see being alone is never good when you are unwell, But I must admit I had just adapted to it. I do miss everyone very much but could really do with an extra week to fully grasp the fantastic tranquil period and make the most of it. Anyway seeing as i only have one day left im off to sleep...

Flower hands...

Well as much as i would like this post to be about my amazing green fingers but its not. You see whilst cooking my dinner this evening i came across a tea towl from when i was at primary school. Check out the art work! My self potrait was not the best but certainly not the worst. Apart from my triangle dress and flower hands...

Expect the ramblings of this crazy pregnant lady to get progresevly madder over the next 8 months. Expect many more trips down memory lane, moaning about feeling sick... Moaning about any thing and everything. I am sure there will be plenty of amusing banter aswell xxxxx

How to tell THEM the news...

Ok so I am pregnant. ... Ive known for about 2 weeks but my family and my boyfriend have all gone away for half term. I didnt want to say anything before they went because i didnt want them worrying anymore about me than they allready do. But the dillema is this do i tell my mum first or tony first ??? Do i tell them together??? How do i tell them face to face. By text. Over the phone. In a note. With cup cakes spelling it out.... I am racking my brains .....
Ooohhh burgers on telle maybe they will guess when I get fat.. Well fatter...

How are they gona react... I am soo scared ... Sooo alone!!!

Greed...or emotional eater...

Well to b fair im not skinny haha i am fat but my weight goes up and down... Ive been skinny but that was due to eating dissorders. But today i started off ok a apple a yogart and tea ... Then i spoke to my baby brother who is skiing for the week.... Trigger... Tears ... Trigger 5 packets of hulla hoops latter!! Then the guilt hits.... Feel like shit!!!!

O.m.g

This bird on t.v!! Her boyfriend just propossed... She say's ok then ! Then the cheeky cow demands a differant ring!!!

I want chocolate!!

Valentines day ... The other time of year (apart from christmas) you can.get fat... Well thats what the adverts seem to be chanelling. I must admit i would kill for the tennis bag full of lindtt mmmm chocolate balls... Kinky .

Ever wished for peace?

Well I have, little did I know what it would feel like... Lonely, if you was wondering. You see my boyfriend and my family have all gone to Italy to SKI ... All the time before they left i had the brave face and grand thoughts of doing me things. Yet i feel like my arms and legs have been cut off. All i want is a cuddle and someone to talk to ... By the way they haven't been gone a day. Am i weak? With only the scabby cat to keep me company.( By keep me company i mean paw me then lay on me for half an hour before he fucks off leaving me covered in hair.... Grr ) i have too much time to think ! And dwell on the fact i didn't get my roast dinner and wont be getting one next week either. And being slightly pregnant food is all i want apart from cuddles.... The smell of that pizza i thought was a good idea is making me heave ! Eeeuugghhh and me and the bean are alone for valentines which suuucckkksss!!! Any way. Let my week of self pitty shit t.v and lots of shit unhealthy food commence!! Ooh and lets get the tissues ready cos p.s i love you is on soon ... P.s be carefull what you wish for peace might seem like a lovely idea but its very lonely!! I would give anything for my little brothers to be buging me for food or my step dad to have a go at me about smoking...