coffeeeee

ok so i have had faaar too much coffe today after soo long without my starbucks fix!! and now i am suffering major caffine come down :( but any way i shall just ramble untill i feel a lil more human!!

so i have some issues with men at the moment !! why are they all soooo stupid and just dont get the signals you throw at them... so theres like 4 that could work out lets call them ..drake and billy and kris and harry... heres the low down .

billy... sorta had a thing a couple of years ago and i was drunk the other night and decided to tell him i liked him but as soon as i am sober im thinking NO and i dont wana fuck with his head.. as we have too many mutual mates and he is a cool freind not attractive tho untill ive had like 7 beers but then again after that many i think rick waller would be attractive.

then theres drake...
hes a mates ex and we have kind of had a thing casual but rare cos he told me the first time we got together that "it not like we are going to fall in love with each other" so i have been gaurded and all that jazz i do really like him and thought he "got" it ... no cos today he tells me he has a date hahaha great thanks for informing me of this ... heart in mouth gona vom in a gutter feeling...

ooh and then there is a another one ..

kris.. so we had a thing then i realied he was using me knowing full well that i loved him he just decided to play me for a fool , yet i still care about him and miss him muchly!!!! sighes cos he has dissapeared off the face of the earth... and then theres ..

Harry.. well this one i reallly like but its all a lil complicated as he is younger than me .. but i have devoloped a huge crush on him i would never do any thing about it but he gives me butterflies .. ooh deear my heads a mess ...

and theres me saying i dont want a boyfreind yet all that has been going through my mind the past couple of days since stating that fact is these messy sitations... and i really dont know wat do ......




hummm diddly humm my head is bloody spinning i would not advise this amount of caffine in any ones system after so long without it ..

any way do do do i think summer needs to hurry up !!!! im sick of being cold! and im sick of moaning about the cold. i want to be able to leave the house in a dress and flip flops and not have the hastle of thinking right have i got my scarfe and my gloves ...

* is it naturall to be seeing double *

ooh i made a decision today that doesnt involve men !! ha as if thats going to happen lol
any way i am going to grow my fringe out !! :D
im sick of this full fringe it keeps growing too fast! and poking me in the eye!!! ouch not a good look when you have half a eyeliner pencil on and your eyes start watering !!! end up looking like a tearfull clown cuaght in a storm !! or even worse clock work orange !!

i think i am going to vomit so im gona go stick my head down the toilet !!!

for now goodbye and avoid coffeeeeeeee